Blabbering

“We are just humans.” What a cliché!  That is our excuse for making mistakes, for falling in love repeatedly, for hurting someone so badly, and whatever stupidity we make in life. And with that, we never desire for perfection; convincing ourselves that perfection is impossible and boring. And we just let our emotions dominate us, never consulting what is Godly and logical. There goes the cycle, we create mistakes and never learned from it.

Is it really better to be unemotional, impassive or stolid person? To look at things at the logical side? That is difficult to most of us.  I salute people who decide and act objectively; who gives science on what he or she does.

At this point in my life, when most of my closest friends are gone, when women of the same age have already married and have children, when elders had gone to their grave, I have decided that I should come into good terms with myself.  If there is somebody in this world that I should be in good relationship with, that would be myself; well, next to God that is. I need to be comfortable and be happy with myself. And I’m sure things would come into place.

I really don’t need to verbalize or express my feelings to other people. Some things are better left to ourselves. We don’t have to burden other people with our personal stuff.  I’m sure they got issues too. I should learn the art of hiding emotions. Yes, it is an art. Sometimes, it is like having 2 persona at the same time- showing that you are okay, when in reality you are hurting so much. Well, it doesn’t really have to sound that bad though.

When I feel like talking but I know that it wouldn't sound right, I'll remind myself to shut up.

Pasta Perfect

I am a pasta lover.  I love it in red sauce, white sauce or simply with olive oil.

Pasta seems to be in my daily menu. It started last Sunday when I was invited for lunch.  Two types of pasta were served – one in red sauce and other in olive oil.  Of course, I ate both.

As if I haven’t eaten enough yet, I bought 450g of spaghetti noodles for myself.  And I planned to have it for a week.  Sounded ridiculous but honestly, I am so in-love with my cooking that I eat it for breakfast and dinner; and I even brought some to the office. I shared it to my colleagues. And they love it too! I was truly happy. It validates my personal belief that I cooked a delicious pasta.

The recipe is actually very simple.  You just need spaghetti noodles, olive oil, bacon, garlic, green bell pepper, carrots, basil leaves, salt and pepper.

Cooked the noodles al dente. In a frying pan, use the olive oil to sauté the chopped bacon. Add the garlic (I add a lot of garlic). Then you can throw in the chopped green bell pepper and the carrots. Add more olive oil if needed.  And I add the chopped basil until I could smell the aroma. You can now turn off the stove at this time.  Then add the noodles.  Put salt and pepper to taste.  And that’s it! So easy!

If you are truly a pasta lover, you can try this recipe. I bet you are going to like it too.

25 pounds plus

Just recently, me and some colleagues started to do a morning jog. Since we are nocturnal people, we work like crazy at night and sleep by  morning.  And with this new activity what we are actually doing is jog before we jump to bed.  It's a bit crazy though because after jogging, my energy level would goes up.  And I have hard time sleeping. 

What motivates us to do this? Health reason of course.  And by looking at the pictures I have years and years ago and looking at myself now, no need for an elaborated explanation -- I know I needed change.

Jogging is just part of the plan.

Since this would take discipline which I barely have, I am not sure on how long it is going to take.  But I will surely try my best., surely push myself harder. And perhaps shed the 25++ pounds I have gained for the last 5 years.

me way back 2004

me choosing a gelato icecream. This was taken mid this year.  25++ pounds heavier.

Whatta Tops

In my search for something chocolatey, when Red Ribbon or Goldilocks were simply too far away, I found Whatta Tops in a store at my convenience. It's a chocolate cupcake, with chocolate toppings and a vanilla cream filling that taste like marshmallows.

The cake is soft. Unlike other cup cakes, it's not dry and it doesn't stuck in your throat. My taste buds says its okay.  It makes a perfect partner to a hot coffee or tea.

For P50, you can buy a pack of 10's. Sufficient for a week of craving. Whatta treat!

Greatest in heaven

I can't believe that a lot of Pinoys still believe that children would go to the limbo when they die.  Some even thought that they would become "tiyanak". Yikes!

This country is supposed to be a Christian country in Asia and yet a lot of us still believes in folk lores, paganism or whatever "pamahiin" - so called Christian who barely know about the bible.

If we are truly Christians then why is that when don't follow the same doctrines? Why don't we have the same practices?

The term Christians is now overused. But who exactly are these men? These are the followers of Jesus Christ. And who is Jesus Christ - well, you really need to read the bible to know Him better. It was in Antioch when the disciples of Christ was called Christians (they were named as such by other people and not by themselves).

We are indeed sinful in nature. And although as children we already see the foolishness, but they are not capable of making a sound judgment from what is right and what is wrong. Why then, some religions insisted on baptizing a child?  What then is baptism? Is that a way to salvation?

Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven? Didn't Jesus called a little child? So how come others would think that chidren would end up in a limbo?

I am posing all these questions to let us think.  God has given us the intellect to know things. However, it shall be wisdom and spiritual maturity that would lead us to the understanding.

I have taken some pictures of the children last weekend. God would never send these small creatures to the limbo; only people do.

Fabulosity

I've been very sick since last week.  I felt like puking, my head spinning and my world was really hot.  My eyes were teary and I can feel the hot air coming out from my nostrils and mouth as if there was a molten magma inside me.

I was basically dragging myself just to do something that I would normally do in a day.

But there was a fashion show that Saturday.  It was definitely going to break my heart if I won't be able to go.  So despite of that sickness, I went to H20 Hotel with my colleagues.  They were actually the ones who invited me.  They picked me up and there I was.  I saw myself sitting with fabulous-looking people; sitting side by side with the elite.  I felt under-dressed. But heck, I was bringing my camera.  I was there to take pictures and not really to socialize.

Jazz music was being played in the hall.  And one by one the models paraded the lovely fashion collection by Edwin Uy.  They were really great I should say. And the models looks beautiful; and some looks sexy without even flaunting much of the skin.  The saying is true indeed that you don't have to show flesh just to be sexy.

Here are the photos I have taken showcasing the dresses I so admired:

Someone like you

I was busy rehearsing my report. I feel really awful today because of my sinusitis and fever but it seems that I would have to drag myself to work just to present it, not to mention having a very important phone conference right after.

Anyway, as I was practicing or as it seems to be, I was scanning the tv channels at the same time.  Someone Like You was being shown. I think this is a late 90's chick flick, if I am not mistaken, that starred Hugh Jackman and Ashley Judd.

My attention wasn't entirely in it.  But I knew this movie. I watched it from before.  This was the movie that compared women to cow.  I think it did mentioned something that after milking the cow, men look for another cow - a younger cow? It also mentioned something about women being used like an ATM machine.

This movie had made me laugh and it made me cry at the same time.  Well, it's a chick flick for crying out loud!  It always follow the same ingredients. And it always makes us feel good at the end.

I'm pretty sure that a lot of women in this generation could relate to this movie. That feeling that they are being reduced to play things or they are simply being used or manipulated. With that, we accused men of being users, manipulative and insensitive.  I know that it is unfair to generalize men to be like that.  But what can we do?  We are emotional creatures. That is a characteristic of women.

Some women jump from one relationships to another, hoping to find their match instead of waiting for the right man. Some stick to a relationship or so-called relationship or something like it believing that it turns out right in the future when it all started as a mistake.  Well, some are very fortunate to have found someone that are best for them.

Whatever the endings of our stories, I just hope that we will be all happy with our choices - whether we decide to be alone and have a dog as a lifetime partner or decide to get married and have a bunch of kids.